I have always thought about hosting my own personal site to collate and store everything that I want to share. It was only really recently that I bit the bullet and got started. Initially, the purpose of this was just to share ideas, but now after writing a few posts: I realise I kinda suck at writing my thoughts down.
So in addition to letting me share my ideas, it also helps me practice my writing and thought organisation. I believe those communication skills are important; it helps you convey your message and ideas clearly and accurately. If I don’t sharpen these skills, I may struggle with important tasks such as writing reports and public speaking. Often I stumble upon my words and fail to get my idea across, because I can’t process my thoughts fast enough and coherently; my mouth just autopilots and doesn’t know what to say next.
Of course, everything may make sense in my head when everything is melded together like thought-jelly, but I won’t be able to properly process and understand my thoughts unless I make sense of them, and the only way to make sense of them is to really write it down. It serves as physical and tangible evidence of the expression of your mind - never changing and bound to reality. A physical record you can always look back on is proof of the mind - a direct and unchanging snapshot of how you felt at that instant.
Often, recollection and reflection may be altered by the thoughts and state of our current self. To only rely on the mind to recall past events may prove unreliable as we may shape our experiences to fit in a way that best suits us at the current state, often disregarding important and crucial points. Contrastingly, if you express yourself thoroughly and honestly through writing, then it is difficult to disregard the feelings held while writing, and rather you feel more connected to your past self. Feelings and expressions are stronger in writing than in memory.
In the end, I want to preserve my ideas in a expressed and accurate way, not so much for other people to understand, but for me in the future to. The brain can be proven unreliable, and at any moment - anyone can just lose their mind and memory. To never be able to access the beautiful memories again is a haunting tragedy in itself.
I fear of losing my mind and forgetting what I have experienced and what is important to me. This website will serve as my rock.